I figure the best way to take myself seriously again is to have consistent action that I don't make a big deal about. I always feel about two weeks, a month of losing weight that I've figured it all out. I get cocky and then sabotage myself. I need to rebuild my own trust and see the bigger picture. See past a month, see past 10 lbs, and see where I want to be and how continued actions will get me there.
I hold water like a crazy person. I try not to weigh daily and won't weigh again until the end of the week, but yesterday: 285.5, today: 282.5. And that doesn't even matter. What matters is exercise and being kind to myself. To not race to the finish line, to stop eating too much the day before "I get back on track" and to stop beating myself up for having (lord forbid) a sugar craving. Because everyone has them.
So in that yesterday, eating when I was hungry (ie: less) caused major pee action (tmi). I pee'd about 10 times yesterday. I had a protein shake for breakfast, protein bar for a snack, chicken alfredo for lunch, string cheese, chicken fajitas for dinner and a clif bar. About 1,550 calories.
Exercise did not happen for no good reason. I talked myself out of it in the morning. Came home (tired) and made dinner and then basically fell asleep on josh on the couch. Went to bed at 10pm which is pathetic. I really want to explore my inner dialog with exercise and really get out of my comfort zone with it. When I tell myself "you should exercise" I immediatly recoil. Sure, I've exercised and loved it. I've gotten int he habit of doing it on a regular basis making it easier to keep going, but as soon as I take a couple of days off, it gets really hard to get going again. So hard that the couple of days turns into two weeks.
I have to go to the court house this morning to get finger printed (heh) and we are taking our gym stuff with us to go right after.
What I'm did yesterday was something, but there is a bigger picture and a longer road.
OMG, don’t get me started about water retention
. Every time I start controlling my portions fairly strictly I can lose up to 10 pounds a week – almost all of it water weight. Aaaand I drink almost almost twice the recommended amount of water per day. It’s a crazy world we live in. Good luck at the court house 
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Do you ever listen to podcasts? I seriously think a big part of my new-found motivation comes from listening to Jillian Michaels’ podcasts from iTunes. I listen on my way home every day and she gets me psyched and excited for my healthy dinner and workout. I don’t know what I’m gonna do when I get caught up, though. I’m still listening to February right now.
Come on, girl! You can make such a difference in 7 weeks! I want you to look at your wedding pictures years from now and remember how great you looked and felt on that day! I don’t want you to have any regrets. It will be the best day of your life – at least it was for me!- and I don’t want you to let anything hold you back.
Lace up your shoes, girl, and kick some gym ass today. Let’s go!
Keep on moving! I find if I exercise I feel more energetic. My hot pink Ipod clip shuffle is my best friend when I exercise. I load it up with upbeat pop and old school disco and just walk to the beat. Listening to like…6 songs is about 25-30minutes of exercise!
Girl, I am soooo where you are! I know how it is to take a couple days off, then you look up and weeks have gone by since you’ve been to the gym. I’m still struggling, but the truth is, I don’t want to be fat anymore, so I repeat that to myself multiple times a day. I also took pictures of myself in a bikini (not a pretty sight!), every time I see the pictures my motivation is renewed! I even wrote about my daily epiphanies in my blog.
You can do it!! I know you have it in you. 7 weeks is plenty of time, but you have to start now. Just think how happy and proud you will be of your self when you walk down the aisle a little lighter. Good Luck!
Just yesterday I was at the gym (I have now completed 1 year of membership) bitching about how I get going, and when I do go, I like to go at least 4 -5 times a week – as that makes going easier…. but if I have a break (because of illness / tired / my own dialogue) what is should be 3 days quickly turns into 10 – 15 days all too easily. Then I do go back, and it hurts so bad, I can’t go as hard and I HATE HATE HATE it….. all too frustrating right?
I try to keep my mind on the big picture, though at only 2 lbs a week, it seems excruciatingly long. Weighing myself daily probably doesn’t help, but when I look back at my progress, I do see that it has been working, and that always helps me stick with it.
The exercising has been hard too – but having a good workout buddy really helps. He doesn’t let me squirm out of my daily workout even when I really want out – having that support and kick in the butt really helps.
you can do it!
you’ll be a beautiful bride, i know it.
Checking your weight daily will drive you crazy. Try setting a certain time, every week, on the same day to weigh. Also try measuring yourself, sometimes I find if I didn’t lose weight, I have lost inches. It at least gives you another thing to think about other then the scale everyday. Just something I do. Maybe it will help.
I am with you. I just started my blog on my weight loss struggles. Hang in there!
Maybe you shouldn’t think too much about this, and just do it. That’s what worked for me. When I think too much, I’ll come up with 10100000 other things that are more important than working out. But when I just get up and do it, before I know it, I’m done!
Start off with just something as simple as walking around your block. You can do it!
you can do it! Good luck at the court house
Consistency will definitely pay off! Keep up the good work!
A vicious cycle that we’re caught in. I tried to be motivated to lose weight for my wedding but instead gained 3-5lbs. I’ll wish you better luck.
Hey–I’m starting a quest to lose weight too. Maybe we can be weight loss buddies or something!
Any chance you could post the itunes link from your other post?
It sounds pretty motivational and I’d love to check it out!